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Name: dustin
Birthday: 1/17/1990
Gender: Male
Interests: hanging out with friends
Expertise: can probly tell you about any tv show or movie on earth, note the fact that this maybe the reason i cant get a date
Occupation: Consulting
Industry: Other
Message: message me
AIM:  chemo351
Member Since:
8/25/2004
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| havent posted in a while, got myself a myspace, its intresting, dont get me wrong i still love xanga, but myspace is just new and interesting to me right now, say hi if you want | | |
| tired and sleepy today, played some video games and watched a little tv. wold be working but my employers found it would be cheaper to cut my hours like a paper doll. "tip, if walking in the woods put on a jingle bell, because jingle bells represent christmas which represents god. this will keep bears away because they are godless killing machines"-stephen colbert | | |
| no school today, which is probly for the better. | | |
| thank you all, it has been hard for me to make myself happy, for i am always trying to make others happy, but i will give it a shot. its a shame to hear about matt zebert, i knew him, not as well as others, but it doesnt mean its sad to hear. my dad is good friends with his dad and thats how i found out. its weird, i herd different randitions but i KNOW for sure he shot himself. its sad it really it is, he was a good kid, he had some bad habits but he was still a good kid. i feel sorry for the friends and family who have lost him. on a lighter note, please say hi to my virtual pet wesely at the bottom of the page, thank you. | | |
| ah, people are stupid, its our biggest flaw. we atampt the impossible, set ourselves up only to get knocked down. sometimes at night i am consumed by a swell of pitty for us, this is followed by a cold sweat. as you all know i have always been the hopeless romantic, always shot down left and right. this has been a problem since i hit my puberty. the drive for love has consumed me, its what keeps me going, but alas it always gets away from me. my problem has caused me to do stupid things in the past, and still to this day, examples, 8th grade i got on my knees and begged leah troller to date me. 9th grade, i gave mel a teddy bear that reeked of pot.10th grade, i dated kristen brear(not spelled right). 11th, i made the horrible mistake of discovering that physical love is in no way good without the mental and emotional love along with it.(yes i made the mistake of fooling around with someone, the person shall not be named, and the people who know will keep there mouths shut or else) love makes us stupid, simple as that. and every time......literally every time, it always goes wrong for me, i hate it, i am sick of it. why is it so hard for me to find someone who could love me ? is it so much to ask? i understand i am in highschool, but this feeling that consumes me, this tightness in my chest. this....longing for love, its driving me and choking me at the same time. and i am afraid what is to come, i am scared of the future,for i dont know what lies ahead. more pain? or the slight chance i find the perfect one, the chance i find "her". its sort of like gambling,but i dont know if i can handle the house winning again.(wow bad gambiling metaphor, sorry) eh, its 5: 10 in the morning maybe i will try to sleep before i head to work.
some happy itll be ok comments would be swell, but please feel free to speak your minds, go ahead, tell me i am crazy and that would solve everything, g'night
also whatever happened to good old mike hopkins?
remember remember the 5th of november, the gunpowder treason and plot. i know of no reason why the gunpowder treason should ever be forgot - V
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